I have always had it, I just learned how to name/describe the foundation of it.
I don't feel pissed much these days but I have been paying very close attention to rare feelings of angst and trying very, very hard to figure them out. This I know is the first step of getting rid of them. I hate feeling anything but peace. Of course I am human but I choose to be at peace as much as possible and I believe more is possible if you can figure yourself out.
I feel it is safe to say, I HATE it when I recognize any person playing one person against another with the goal of being worshiped. It's quite difficult to recognize for most because many become the kiss ass worshiper this person is expecting them to be. The implied threat usually goes something like this:
"kiss my ass and worship everything about me or I will do something to defame you or make you be the target of my wrath or I will deprive you of my 'royal' presence. You will have been witness to someone being their target and you may do anything to not get the same treatment.
It is best you stay completely away from them and not get sucked into their abuse and manipulation. They care nothing about anyone but themselves and appearnce is the name of the game. They collect people like disposable trinkets that they can just toss away when the worship isn't to their satisfaction.
If you are valuable to their survival and/or appearance you may be the only one they manage to treat well for as long as they can keep up the act. They are masters at getting these needs met by someone who is somewhat emotionally or physically absent or needy and they give just enough of what you need to passify. You will likely be the last to see the big picture.
Clinically this behavior is symptomatic of borderline personality disorder or bi-polar with great narcissistic dysfunction or even anti-social or psychopathic tendencies.
Ever felt like you had to walk on egg shells around anyone? They probably are acting out the behaviors I have described.
I should know better than to feel hate or angst or be pissed. I know they can't help it. They are mentally sick and need help. Sometimes they are just too far into themselves that they can never be helped. They seem to be just stuck at the two or three year old level of developement. That "look at me, look at me" stage. And if you don't throw out "good job" or "wow, way to go" (worship) -the tantrum starts.
Believe it or not, these behaviors stem from great, giant insecurities. They have the ability to objectify people. They hate themselves but act as if they have think they are above others and project their self-loathing and anger onto others. Many times onto people they don't even know or have never met. It feeds their false sense of superiority and boosts their self worth to hurt others even if their target doesn't know or hear them.
Most people with these traits become addicts and alcoholics. Thankfully my cliens with these problems, to a degree that cause me angst, get kicked out because of causing drama and turmoil.